Update

OMG - I have about a week and a half before I leave back home! And there's so much to be done! Planning trips and all - somehow I feel that finishing the internship doesn't really mean that I get to stop working. There's always more work to be done. It's never done. The past few weeks saw many things happening. I was preparing for my presentation - which went well today. Woohoo! I also moved to a new apartment - the only thing was that the apartment did NOT have water! Ugh, so upsetting but that left me staying in my current accommodation for a while longer. My other friends whose internship last for only 6 weeks, all left back to Malaysia. Just the thought of them going back to Malaysia makes me feel a little left out - sigh. Luckily there are still some lamers here. It won't be so bad.

Overall I think this internship gave me a new perspective, a new view on where I want to be in. Just working in an investment bank change me a lot in terms on how I view things. A good example is that on the war between Russia and Georgia. Can I call it a war? or merely a brutal assault and a show of one's supremacy. Anyways, instead of reading about the deaths or the damages caused, I read about how it's affecting the world economy. I read on how the Russian currency (Ruble) went up just when the President of Russia called of the attacks. I read on how the war had an effect on the falling of crude oil.

Oh, even the politics in Malaysia came up once in a while. But the bank would be more concern about the investments there and how the political issues would cause high uncertainty for the interest rates. AH!! I'm turning into a Banker! Specifically, a risk manager.

I miss Malaysia now - the first thing that I really want to do is get a brand new pair of glasses. Mine broke when I was playing football a couple of weeks ago, now I live with contact lens everyday - trust me when I saw that wearing contacts everyday and keep on looking at the LCD screen like what I'm doing now, would ultimately kill your eyes. I can feel it dying day by day. I'm so going to get new glasses. And since it's been about 3 years since my last pair, I WILL splurge! Get a brand new branded glasses! I'm so looking forward to it.

The next thing I want to do is Shopping! Enjoy the conversion rate and the Malaysian Mega Sale! Hahaha I'm definately getting new shirts, shoes, pants and whatever it is that is cheap and looks nice even though I know that I'll never need it.

A friend from work introduced me to this kid's show - something like Sesame Street but only more funny! Hahah enjoy

So go out and play today!

Clear vision

I take myself too seriously sometimes... I should let go sometimes and I am doing so now.

Life is too short and beautiful for regrets - live it to the fullest and enjoy it. Don't destroy it or end it - it was never yours in the first place.

:)

Found a quote... really made me laugh. Hope it has the same affect to you.

Life is a sexually transmitted disease. - R. D. Laing

Not funny? Why so serious?

Skin Deep

What comes into your head when you feel so alone, so empty even though you're in a room filled with people. Does it confuse you when strangers seem so close to you and your friends seem so distant. Slowly, I'm inching closer and closer towards the edge. To fall to the point where I don't recognise myself anymore. I feel it coming soon. I barely recognise the person in front of the mirror. That identity, that person... is merely skin deep.

Beyond that is a mystery.


A wise man once said "Why so Serious?"
He also said "I'm like a dog chasing a car. I don't know what to do with it once I've caught it."

I've caught the car...


Now what?

3 weeks to maturity

Bruised from paintballing. Most people said it was a lovebite - that's one aggressive chick then... scared for life, I don't think I want anymore lovebites. It looks like a puncture short of being a vampire bite.

Emo part ahead...

Stop and stare

I think I'm moving but I go nowhere

Yeah I know that everyone gets scared

But I've become what I can't be, oh

Stop and stare

You start to wonder why you're here not there

And you'd give anything to get what's fair

But fair ain't what you really need

Oh, can you see what I see

- One Republic, Stop and Stare

I'm confused and yet this song relates to me so well. I like it so much. Play count now on my WMP - Lost Count.

Do you get the feeling sometime... when you do so much, you try so much even going to the extend of being someone you're not. Or doing things you'd never dream of doing. Tried everything from being yourself to being a total alien, a stranger. And after all that, you end up where you started. And then it dawns to you - all your efforts was a total waste. Right from the beginning, you were already wasting your time. There are just things you just can't change - there are just things you have to accept for what it is. Though you wish for a nicer life, just face it. Face the very fact that you life isn't perfect and no matter how much you try, you just can't catch a glimpse of a perfect one.

Give up? or pursue something that would never seem to exist in reality, investing your very life to achieving that? Die trying... literally. It's funny though, to have that as a reason for living.

Ironicly, that's the most reasonable purpose for living.